Day 19: Nicknames you have and why you have them

What do YOU think my nickname is???

Day Eighteen: Plans/dreams/goals I have.

can I pass on this one? lol

The ones I have aren't big ones. I am thinking more like FlyLady stuff... cleaning and decluttering.
That was plans and goals, and is probably just a dream...

Day Seventeen - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.

I'd love to switch lives with a hot, rich dude. I'd be shopping and touching myself all day long!!! hahahaha

And to entertain your brains, here are some hot, rich dudes...








Who is YOUR man candy?

Day 16: Another Picture of Yourself

This is the old Kelly.

The one who thought her marriage was just fine. The one who wondered why she had to walk so fast to catch up to him, why he held Garrett's hand and left me behind.

This is the Kelly who thought it was normal for life to be the way it was.

This is the Kelly who was still in shock from losing Kasey, who had no idea why the decline of life as she knew it was so obvious to everyone else but her.

I wish I could have told her to RUN!!!

Now that I've gotten through so many rough things, the New Kelly isn't as affected by things so much anymore. Sure, I have my days, but things that really screw up other people don't bother me nearly as much. I've been through worse.

Not many people love themselves. I used to hate myself. But, the things I've gone through in the past five years have made me see myself for who I really am.

I am more than my lack of makeup, my big head, my Martin Nose, and the gap in between my front teeth.

I'm a survivor. I'm broken, but I am still here. I am loved. I am hurting. I am smart. I am scared. I'm not your average woman, but I'm completely normal. I'm probably one of the most sane people you'll ever meet, but I'm crazy as hell.

I'm far from perfect. I get jealous, I screw up, I gossip, and I eat and sleep way too much. I'm human. I'm also funny, have a heart of gold, and make great things happen.

Do you love YOURSELF?

Day 15: Put Your iPod On Shuffle: First 10 Songs That Play

Okay, I have to admit a deep, dark secret... One that I'm awfully ashamed of...

I

Don't

Own

an iPod.

BUT WAIT! I do have iTunes on my MacBook, that counts! If I want to listen to music while I'm out and about, I just put Pandora on my phone and stick my earphones in.

I'm going to look at my iTunes, though... Here goes:
Darius Rucker's Learn To Live album
Crash Into Me by Dave Matthews Band
Sattellite by Dave Matthews Band
Sleeping To Dream by Jason Mraz
Gravity by John Mayer
I'm Gonna Find Another You by John Mayer
Straight To Hell by Matt Nathanson
Come On Get Higher by Matt Nathanson
Sober by P!nk
Glitter In The Air by P!nk

Not much in the way of variety, now that I look at it. Oh, well.

I've skipped a few days. Haven't been in the best of moods, either. My son was at his dad's, and while I enjoyed the break, I miss the FOOL out of him. I was also the only one in the house because my sister and niece were in Atlanta (niece is one of those competition cheerleaders and they had a competition) and Kamrin was hanging out at her bestfriend's house.

It was just too dang quiet.

I DID, however, do a sh!t-ton of laundry and crocheting. Plenty of sleeping, as well. I could have done more, but there really wasn't anyone around to motivate me. I am terrible at self-motivation unless I'm working.
Oh, and I went to Kamrin's first softball tournament of the season. That was a long day, but it was pretty fun. I love watching that girl catch a softball and swing a bat.

Anyway, that's it for now. :)
.....AND NOW FOR SOME BREAST HAT...

Day 14: A Picture of You and Your Family

I have a LOT of family. So, here are a few pictures...

Me and the Earth kids:


My Heaven kid:


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Mom (see where I get the crazy from?):



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Daddy:



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Sister:


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Brother:


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I have nephews, nieces, in-laws... you name it. However, this post would be fifty pages long if I posted them, but I hope they know that I love them ALL!


All I know is, families are forever and everyone thinks they are the only normal one in their family. Hell, I know *I* am...

Day 13: A Letter To Someone Who Has Hurt You Recently

For real?!

This cannot end well.

I have to admit, that past this sexy exterior, I'm easily hurt. Then, I get mad. Real mad. Usually, if I lash out at someone, it's because I got my feelings hurt. I'm pretty much like an injured animal that way, I guess.

"Don't try to pick it up, it'll give you rabies!"
"What do I do, then? I just can't let it suffer! I have to help it!"
"Reverse, gas. Drive, gas. Repeat if necessary."




Then, I buy myself something.

Today, I bought myself some tulips and stuck em in a mason jar. That's just good decoratin'.

What do you do when someone hurts your feelings? Do you sit there and feel sorry for yourself? Or, do you do something about it? Do you kick someone's ass, or do you puff up and walk away?

Day 12: How You Found Out About Blogger and Why You Have One

I have a LiveJournal, but I like Blogger better.

This assignment was boring.

Day 11: Another Picture of You and Your Friends

Okay, I am unhappy with today's assignment.

However, I will still do it, but with a twist... The first one with me and a friend will get posted, no shopping through them.
this WILL be fair.




Awesome!

This makes me pretty excited for the Flowertown Festival! You ready, Cilla?!

Day Ten - Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad.

I'm super tired, so let's see if I can still crank this out...

When I am happy, I like Matt Nathanson, some newer country, and Dum Dum by Brenda Lee.



Sad:



Bored... I'll listen to pretty much anything when I'm bored.



When I'm hyped, I'll listen to heavy metal or stuff I can dance to.

When I'm mad, I listen to



I've had a pretty good day, except I finally got my MRI results. I was diagnosed with MS in November of '06. I had ONE lesion in my brain.
Now, I have FOUR.

They aren't active lesions, they are just... there.

This ain't good, it's pretty heavy stuff. I know that whatever happens, happens. It's sobering, though, because I have a lot of really good days when I feel just great and it's easy to forget that I have a disease. Days like this, it's REAL.
I'll be fine, I just have to digest it.

Day 9: Something I'm Proud Of In The Past Few Days

I've been trying to get a better handle on my messy house. That in itself is a feat of epic proportions.

Also, last night I made dinner for the missionaries. I didn't have time to actually cook, so I relied on good ole' Mrs. Mac and, I'm ashamed to say, INSTANT mashed potatoes. I'm going to kitchen hell for that one.

(Every Southern Woman prides herself on her home cookin'. I am not about to say I'm a bad cook, but I'm picky as hell and always in a hurry. Not a good combination. Also, NEVER, EVER, under ANY circumstances, criticize a woman's ability to cook. That's right up there with saying, "Yep, that dress DOES make your butt look big.")

To reiterate:
Don't call a woman a bad cook. If it's burnt or flavorless, shut up and eat it with a smile.

Don't call a woman fat. If she sets the trap and says, "I'm fat," DENY DENY DENY!!!)

Can you picture me on Iron Chef? With my packets of mashed potato flakes and canned green beans?
I'd be worried as hell about whatever that "Secret Ingredient" would be, because there's no Hamburger Helper for squid.

Anyway, enjoy this video... and try not to say "Beeyeeeerrrrrr!!!" out loud too much today. Or... actually, DO.

Day 8: Short Term Goals For This Month and Why

I don't have very lofty goals for this month, but here's a short list:

1. Do this 30 day blog

2. Make a few more of the CUTEST newborn/preemie hats like pictured above

3. Walk a little bit more than I eat

4. Work on my patience

5. Be more frugal

6. Make more friggin hats. I'm up to my ears in hats and still have lots more to do.

I'm realizing that hobbies are only fun when you want to do them, not when you have to do them...

Nighttime

It is really hard to do the victims impact panels sometimes.
I'm so emotionally spent right now, and the emotions are swimming around inside my head and I need to let them out.

Tonight, I made the mistake of watching Kasey's video before my speech. I usually speak first and then play the video. I was so hypnotized by how beautiful and special my little girl was. I couldn't stop staring at her. I've always thought she was such a pretty little girl, but tonight.... she was beautiful.

Sigh...

Time for bed.

Day 7: A Picture of Someone/Something That Has The Biggest Impact On Me

Seriously?

You have no clue what has impacted me the most?

OF COURSE, it's Kasey. It is really, really hard to share her story with everyone, but it would be way harder NOT to share her story.

I miss her every second of every minute of every day. I remember how her soft, curly hair felt on my face, how she held her hands out for me to paint her fingernails.

I'm also going to mention my biggest influence...

Daddy

He was a gruff, no-nonsense man with a heart of gold. Whenever I get into my victim, poor-Kelly state of mind, I can hear him telling me to quit my whining and do something about it.

He is the only man I could ever (and will ever) trust.

Standing at a towering 5'4" and weighing in at 136 lbs., he was afraid of no one and never minced words. He was absolutely NEVER politically correct and didn't give a damn about what anyone else thought.

If I run into someone that I knew was a friend of Daddy, I know they are 'good people.' Gary Martin was an excellent judge of character and didn't clutter his life with people who weren't worth his time.

When I worked with him at Bosch, my main motivation for working my ass off was to impress my father. And I did. There was no way in hell I'd embarrass him or give anyone a reason to tell him I wasn't up to par. I wanted him to be proud of me. There was nothing more important that that.

I think I need to remind myself that he's still watching over me and that I need to, as he would say, get my ass in gear.

LOVE YOU, Daddy.

Day 6: Favorite Superhero and Why

I'm not much of a comic book *nerd. So, I actually had to wiki the term 'superheroes.'

After looking through all the choices, I chose one that I didn't need to wiki at all... Spiderman.

I think he's just your average dork with a crush on a pretty girl. I like that, because I don't want some rich asshole running around in tights (i.e. Batman.) If I wanted that, I'd pick Elton John.

Good ole Peter Parker (whose name makes me giggle) was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. He was bitten by a spider and voila! He can shoot stuff out of his palm and swing around everywhere. If his superhero gig doesn't end up working out, I'm sure he can get a job at Barnum & Bailey as an acrobat. Or, he could just weave up some safety nets.

Cool tattoo in

3...

2...

1...

*I actually love nerds.

Day 5: A Picture of Somewhere I've Been

Oh, where, Oh, where have I been?

As I'm much too lazy to actually find the real pictures of said places, I will use good ole Photobucket...

My absolute favorite place is Pike's Market in Seattle.

Yes, that's the place where the dudes throw the fish

I've been to the butthole of the world, Allentown, PA...

My favorite place in the world... MAINE!

Day 4: A Habit I Wish I Didn't Have

I made it to day four!

Today's post is a habit I wish I didn't have. Well, that's easy.

I eat just for the hell of it.

As Freud would say, I have an oral fixation.

When I used to smoke, I lost a good bit of weight. I smelled awful, but I had less of me. Now, I've gained all that weight back and I suppose I've substituted cigarettes for Doritos. And chocolate. And kool-aid. And potato chip sandwiches.

Right now, I'm the weight I always said I would never reach. I've always said I would take better care of myself than this. However, depression and laziness has made my body into a caricature of my family genes.

My pants keep wanting to roll down in the front and I am constantly pulling at the front of my shirt (so it won't stick to my body). I get winded way more easily and I break into a sweat putting on my Spanx.

Eating feels good while I'm doing it. I feel like crap afterward, though. What sucks is the fact that humans HAVE TO eat. With smoking, I could just quit, I didn't need a smoke every now and then to maintain my health. Food is necessary, so I can't just avoid it altogether. I know about the better choices I need to make, but unless they come up with bacon-flavored lettuce, I'm not gonna enjoy it.

I can't wait to read about YOUR bad habits.

Day Three: A Picture of You & Your Friends

I am one blessed gal.

I have a LOT of friends.

PLUS, I know who my real friends are. The past few years of my life have been like a giant sifter, sifting out the good and the bad. And, let me tell you... My friends are the best!

So, I'm not gonna post a picture of me and my friends. I know you all are half-crazy, just like me (birds of a feather), and whoever I forget is gonna get all pissed at me. I'm not taking that bait!!!

Day Two: The Meaning Behind Your Blog Name

Well, if you've ever met me, you wouldn't be askin'.

I am one. crazy. beeyotch.

I'm the good kind of crazy, though. The older I get, though, the more I realize that I'm not so crazy, after all. I mean, compared to most other people.

I mean, have you even WATCHED Hoarders? Geez.

I used to think I had it all together. And, for the most part, I did.

Then I had kids.

Plus, you know the crap I've been through. How can anyone possibly stay sane after that? Really?

I think, though, that if I didn't have some crazy runnin' around in my head, I wouldn't be here right now. Being crazy and having the ability to laugh in stressful situations helps to relieve the pressure of the moment. Nobody can hold it all together through all situations. I know the good Lord gave me my sense of humor and a few loose screws for a reason.

Plus, it is WAY less boring this way.

That 30 Day Challenge I Was Talkin' About.

Okay, here is that challenge I was talking about. I dare you all to try it. I'm gonna do today's from the hospital, I think. Please say a prayer for Neil, he keeps getting complications from the surgery and so the doctors haven't even discussed a release date.

At any rate, here is the list. Good luck, have fun, and enjoy!

Day One- A recent picture of yourself and fifteen interesting facts.



Day Two- The meaning behind your blog name.



Day Three -A picture of you and your friends.



Day Four- A habit that you wish you didn’t have.



Day Five- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to.



Day Six- Favorite super hero and why.



Day Seven- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.



Day Eight - Short term goals for this month and why.



Day Nine - Something you’re proud of in the past few days.



Day Ten - Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad.



Day Eleven - Another picture of you and your friends.



Day Twelve - How you found out about blogger and why you have one.



Day Thirteen - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.



Day Fourteen - A picture of you and your family.



Day Fifteen - Put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play.



Day Sixteen - Another picture of yourself.



Day Seventeen - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.



Day Eighteen - Plans/dreams/goals you have.



Day Nineteen - Nicknames you have and why you have them.



Day Twenty - Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future.



Day Twenty one - A picture of something that makes you happy.



Day Twenty two - What makes you different from everyone else.



Day Twenty three - Something you crave for a lot.



Day Twenty four - A letter to your parents.



Day Twenty five - What I would find in your bag.



Day Twenty six - What do you think about your friends?



Day Twenty eight - A picture from you last year, and now. What has changed since then?



Day Twenty nine - In this past month, what have you learned?



Day Thirty - Your favorite song.

One Month of Blogs?! Day 1

Okay, Mizz Tina... I am going to take you up on your challenge. ONE month of daily blogs. I'm very glad there are assigned topics!

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Today's blog is...

"Day 1: A recent picture of you and 15 Interesting Facts About You."

Who is judging how interesting these are? Hopefully, the judge is a very, very bored person and gets excited about just about everything.

1. I really enjoy (and miss) the clicking of a typewriter's keys. I wish that it was an option on a laptop, because I'd totally get it.

2. The dogs in this house all snore. Just like the owners.

3. If there is a bucket of beans or seeds or beads, you can be sure I'm gonna stick my hand in it. It feels good.

4. There is nothing a wet washcloth can't cure.

5. I have recently discovered that Hawai'an music knocks me out like Ambien. Actually, BETTER than Ambien.

6. If I'm visiting your house, and the toilet paper is not coming off the top of the roll, you can bet your sweet bippy I'm gonna fix it.

7. I cannot match my clothes. That's why I wear lots of denim or black.

8. As a woman, I find it strange and refreshing that I don't like 'love movies' very much. Gimme a shoot-'em-up, blood-and-gore movie any day.

9. My favorite color is the color of police lights, UNLESS they are behind me.

10. Know how people think certain foods are 'too sweet'? NOTHING is ever too sweet to me.

11. I cannot flippin' stand the PLOCK PLOCK PLOCK sound of a dog drinking water. It is worse than nails on a chalkboard. ACK! Even thinking about it pisses me off.

12. I often wish I had a gun that shot paintball pellets filled with hot sauce and shards of glass. I'd shoot parents who are mean to their children in Wal-Mart.

13. I'm a very picky eater and often have a pile on the edge of my plate of the things I pick out.

14. I play with my hair when I'm sleepy.

15. Few things perk up my mood like brand new, white tennis shoes.